Re-flecting on the Research Process
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It takes much courage and time to reflect on my journey to 'who I am' and why I am ‘here’ today. 'Who' as a student, as an academic, as a proud gay man, etc. 'Here' in the Netherlands, in university, in RASL, but also here in conflict with myself.

Despite that, I find it powerful as this archive gave me space to process my memory and thoughts, which I've never done before. This is the power of liminal space, it is confronting and scary, but it drives the possibility for transformation.

REFLECTION

Re-viewing the Undisciplined Research on Liminal Space
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The term liminal is fluid, complex, and undisciplined, which makes it challenging to apply in a scientific journal and my usual writing practices. However, my biggest takeaway from this is that the fluidity of the term allows me to reflect on many aspects of my life that resonate with me the most.

Just like the undisciplined Research method, I was able to try and utilize materials that are meaningful to me. Undisciplinary and fluidity may bring uncertainty, but they may contribute to meaning-making.

Dis-engaging and engaging the Public
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This archive is created primarily for individuals like myself, who struggles with identity, esteem, and mental challenges. Most importantly, for those who do not feel comfortable to seek help.

By showing how I disengaged and engaged with the society through liminal space, this serves as an example that self examination could potentially lead to a better wellbeing.

Re-imagine my tomorrow
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This archive and this liminal space created do not provide a conclusion on any questions posed, or to answer any question about myself. Nonetheless, this liminal space that zooms into the present is personal, honest, and most importantly, authentic.

Only with authenticity, there could possibility for transformation, and re-imagine my tomorrow in a meaningful way.

This archive and this liminal space is alive, it is an ongoing process for understanding self…

Learning through collaborating with my RASL group

The collaboration with RASL group six was full of joy and conflict. Ultimately, we made a final presentation that was meaningful and interesting. However, what meant the most to me was the process of collaboration. This group of people is considered as an outsider of my liminal space, as they indirectly influenced how I shaped my liminal space, and how I rethink about myself and my surrounding during this period. The following are the important aspects that I learned from my group members.

Maria:
Strength and vulnerability, which translates into the empowerment of others.

Merel:
Open-mindedness and spontaneity, which leads to the ultimatum of creativity.

Marjolein:
Self-care and the care for the others, which inspires me to think of the humanistic side of me.

Eva:
Compassion and love, which makes me feel belonging

Denys:
Challenging and questioning, which leads to a better standing of self and others.

Tim:
Confidence and knowledge, which leads to the higher pursuit of self.

Juliano:
Kindness and passion for music, which inspires me to pursue what I love.

Vivian:
Critical yet caring, which inspires me to rethink the structural aspects of my upbringings, and my surroundings.

Re-flection on the form of presentation
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What I learned from RASL is how research could be presented in a, which is different from what I normally do with scientific research. I have experimented with different forms of media and linguistic presentation. It is challenging and less structured, yet I find it interesting and meaningful to go through it again, and again.

The main reason of adding voice audio presentation is that I felt ready to talk, instead of writing. It could be a more humanistic way of presenting, as you could hear my emotions through my voice.